I'm totally lost of interest on everything... It's not because I'm going for operation.
I feel like going back to primary school time, where I didn't really have friends.
Talking to people in office is like a tough job to me.
With all the negative feelings, I keep wondering am I suitable to my current job.
Is it because I'm too used to the previous job where I have many colleagues who are friends to me?
Or I'm just getting tired on the job itself?
Or I'm too lazy to work?
Why I can't be more money-minded & don't bother about anything around me?
Just get the job done for the day, then go back home & rest well.
Every morning, I find myself hard to wake up to work. I keep lying on my bed & hope that I'm sick so that I can take MC.
I feel like crying at the moment. Am I too stressed?
I have to learn from others, not to overwhelmed with working emotions. After office hour, just continue with my personal life well.
I'm too emotional in everything, till all the emotions from all aspects kick into other areas.
My hatred feeling towards my brother...
My unsecured feeling on the unscheduled operation...
My worries about my mum...
My work...
All feelings & emotions are mixed up.
I can hardly understand myself.
I'm confused. Is it resulted from my job of choice or family matter or health matter? I really wonder.
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