工作狂

我竟然不知道星期一是公假，当朋友告诉我时，还以为她在开玩笑。

我真的为工作而活吗？可能，我也不确定。

希望之后工作环境会缓和些，生活会比较 balance。

其实，我是个懒惰虫，可是别人总觉得我是工作狂。

算啦，我活在自己的眼里就好。

字：小佩佩

忧郁

今早和亲戚们一起吃早餐，如以往，追问我什么时候结婚。
我说，没打算，不想摆酒，什么都不想做。

很多时候，我在想，是他们太八卦了，还是我太孤僻。
我想，应该是我孤僻吧。

习惯了一个人，习惯了寂寞，习惯了工作狂的态度。

【音乐响起了，Hebe 的 “我寂寞寂寞就好”， chorus - 我寂寞寂寞就好~~~】

总是一个人，笑容少了。
所以，亲戚们说我总是很忧伤。

【音乐响起了，MLTR 的 "That's Why (You Go Away)"， 第二句 - There's sadness in your eyes~~】

对，我是很忧伤，很忧郁，有时还会问自己是不是得了忧郁症。

一个人可以很自由，不好吗？

忧郁的我，写着无聊的 blog，再加上下了一整天的雨，心情冷冷的，心情是哪会热呢？

明天又工作了，收拾心情去面对 Monday blue 吧！

小佩佩

Existing Staff vs New Staff

I just don't understand the practice of employer. They are willing to pay more for hiring new staff rather than retaining the existing staff with the same amount of salary. In the end, the musical chair game begins, i.e. staff #1 used to be in Company A now is working in Company B due to 30% (or more) jump in basic pay whilst staff #2 used to work in Company B is now in Company A for the same reason.

I'm one of the example in the scenario mentioned above. I have been in the previous company for almost 4 years. I was so satisfied with the first and second remuneration that I had. However, during the third remuneration, things became stagnant. The management's rationale is that slightly lower basic salary will be compensated with good bonus (this practice is still applicable till now). However, my bonus was anyhow better. Hence, I decided to leave the place for 30% jump in basic pay. In fact, the incremental was more than 30%.

After I tendered my resignation, the department head refuse to talk to me at all. As the team leader was so eager to retain me, then only the department head tried to talk to me. However, the talk was useless as he started the conversation by scolding me to have chosen to leave the place for the 30% increment and I still remembered his word "我唔咗你发达'. As usual, I just smiled at him politely.

He has been working in the place for more than 20 years since he first started to work. He enjoys all the benefits (e.g. e-source, car allowance & etc) offered by the employer as he is a management staff. Employee at my age is only looking for the salary amount. I am still at executive level in which money is always the first item in my mind.

After my resignation, the vacancy was replaced by another lady who has working experience of less than two years. Her basic pay may be slightly lower than mine (at that time) by 5% as she jumped from another company. Why can't the company adjust my increment at the first place so that I would stay?

It's a true fact and the trend that employer nowadays prefers to hire new staff than to retain existing staff with the same amount of money. So, when there is opportunity, just go ahead for the jump. Loyalty is a good attribute but however management has misused it. Morale is no longer applicable.

Even though I may not be as happy as in the previous place, but it is compensated with the 30% jump in my basic pay. Furthermore, I'm entitled for the auto-increment although I am still under probation.

I rather become a new staff with 30% increment in basic pay.

忐忑不安的心情

不知道怎么了。。。心，很忐忑不安。
工作上的事情，令我很忐忑不安。是我不够好，不了解自己所在的工作岗位，还是公司制度的问题呢？
原以为这个星期可以比较轻松，因为这个月的 renewal 已经全 approved 了。
昨天，老板突然告诉我，说有份 urgent 的 paper，这个礼拜必须把它做好，呈交给新加坡的同事过目。
手上还有两份 urgent 的 paper 还未赶好，今天必须先把它们赶完，再继续另一份 paper，要 reply queries，过后才能继续新的 paper。
我的 time management，的确出了问题。

解梦

今早，梦见自己在帮一只母山羊接生，醒后，感觉怪怪的。
我尝试在 Google 查看解梦的网页，有提到梦见山羊及绵羊的解说，但没有关于帮山羊接生的解说。
有谁可以提供资料？