Counselling

I'm not keen on doing counselling session.
I feel like I'm burned out.
I'm satisfied with the treatment that I received in this place.
Yet, I'm not a good, or professional, counsellor, or counsellor trainee.
I'm still thinking of switching to other fields, maybe HR, financial, logistic, commodity, for instance.
After listening to buddy's experience in the world of work, I feel doubtful and confused about my own career.
Of course my lecturers are hoping their students to register as a liciensed counsellor.
Somehow, I don't feel like doing so.
It's not that I'm scared of the Board of Counsellor, it's that I'm not really suitable to the counselling field.
Counselling is a helping profession and I like to help others (it's because I don't know how to say "No").
Still, I'm not that outstanding in this field.
And I'd trouble myself for being so-called helpful to others.
Counselling is a good field of study and a profession with good future perspective.
I'm not in the field.
It does help me to improve myself in controlling my emotions and getting to know myself better.
Still, I couldn't help myself.
It's like the Chinese proverb: "Neng Yi Bu Neng Zi Yi".
It means doctor can heal people but not himself.
I feel that I'm in this situation and condition.
I can counselling people but I can't do it for my own.
I can't even try to ease myself with rational thought at times.
Maybe I need to meet with some experienced counsellors or social workers so that they can help me in dealing with "the little myself" inside my heart.
It's really a hard thing to think of.

XPP